[~ emancipation of me ~]

“Wahai orang-orang yang beriman! Jauhilah kebanyakan dari sangkaan (supaya kamu tidak menyangka sangkaan yang dilarang) kerana sesungguhnya sebahagian dari sangkaan itu adalah dosa dan janganlah kamu mengintip atau mencari-cari kesalahan dan keaiban orang dan janganlah setengah kamu mengumpat setengahnya yang lain.”

(Al-Hujarat [49]:12)

(p/s: A reminder for myself and you)

***

Now that its only several hours to april, Im starting to feel a bit worried. My final exam just a week distance from me. And I havent prepared for anything yet due to sO many thing that need to be settled. And alhamdullilah, 70% of it already settled and it left me with 30% more before I can concentrate my max for my studies. Hope that I have time for everything.iA.

***

I noticed that I havent done my tag from layla yet. I’ll do it later ek. And btw, since it still the month of march, and although I already wish u dear, x dulik nak gak tulis kat cni. hehe. HAPPY BELATED BIRTHDAY TO LAYLA.hihi. gile ketinggalan nak tulis kat blog. dont care.its my blog neway.hehehe

Lately, Im extremely busy.  Eh, I already mentioned it before right. My schedule full with things. This week mark as the busiest week among all. Dean’s dinner on Monday, School of graduate studies seminar on Tuesday, Test on Wednesday, Netball match on Thursday and Friday, Meeting for BSBI sukaneka and group assignments on Saturday, and last but not least, today. The BSBI sukaneka at the morning and group meetings on afternoon and night. Phew~ exhausted I must say. Not forget to mention, how reddish I am rite now.

###

I dont want to blab about my buziness here.

###

It’s about the various kind of people that I met day by day. How nice they can be. How unpredictable they are. And how “rotten” & ”stink” they heart can be.  To tell the truth. I faced a “big” issue this past few days. Atleast, considered as big by someone I named B. Dont really know whether this is my problem or this is actually B’s. B’s have this habbits of writing down her unsatisfaction towards everything as her skype status. And as far as most of us concern, she always condemn and unsatify with most of things. For me to be one of her closest friend is actually a hard thing. Because, I am the type of person who love to tell story, love to have many friends, love to tell jokes, and quit easy to mingle with almost everyone. But, she’s the other way around.

###

So far, I have been her “skype-status” victim for approximate 5 time. Its not a direct one. But, Im not that fool not to understand those sinical words. Because she’s always think a lot, and always pessimistic about things, one words that I said can be a knife that stabbing her heart numerous times. Its weird, I know. And guess what I feel. I ask many opinion about what I’ve did or said from our closest friend. And none of them agree with her. They said, I have done nothing wrong. She’s just misinterpret my words into something negative. Or she just envious. Im a competitive type of person. But not in everything. I said “nak menang as a joke”. And she start to feel irritated and annoyed and what else, pouring all her sinical words as her status. Aren’t we supposed to have those kind of ethusiasm when needed?? phew.. I cant understand her..

###

Her issue continue 4 for 3 days. Changing her status into meaner and meaner words and me and my friend just observed and smirk to see how weirder she can turn to be. I can be patience. One time she did, I just hold back.. Second time, I took it as positive things to correct what If I really did anything wrong. But this is the 5 time she did. And what I do? I just ignore her. Not even looking at her faced when I talk. Why should I? When she really hate me for things that I dont know. When I ask her, she pretend like nothing happens. When I said Im sorry if I did anything wrong, she change the topics. When in front of me, she’s just plain and nice. Oh, what a faker.

###

I dont know. She’s says I always feel like I always right. But actually, I feel the same for her too. Most people that I already ask have no problem with me. But with she, I heard negative things alot. If I were that bad, I will tell her straight to her face what have peoples told me about her. How people cant stand with her words that have no sieve. How irritates her acts and so and so. I wish, we have no problem like these because we are friend. We have problems with her too, but never did us condemn her like she did to us. Not only to me. But for other people also. Why she should acting like dat? Nobody in this world is perfect. Ur just using ur words to cover up ur disadvantages. Thats is what we intrepret ur act as.

###

Im not sure if ur reading this.I dont care if u want to hate me more.Just realize that, it is not a big issue to exxagerate things.U seriously need a help. U look like u have a problem. Dont hesistate or shame to admit or share with us. We are not ur oppose. We are ur friend. Come on, grown up and be matured!! Now u see, my way of showing my unsatisfaction.

###

(p/s: what should I do?anyone?)

(I can be mean too if I want. But I just dont. Because U are my friend)

Ok, sorry for the last entry peeps.. I almost finnish my plus minus 1000 words of entry when suddenly, I accidently delete them all. How frustrating is dat?! eurghh.. Now I have to start it all over again..*sigh* 

+++

 So, where have I gone all this while? Actually, semenjak dua tiga menjak ni, mmg agak busy with things. Tp, busy tu bukan sebab musabab utama napa aku x update2 blog ni. Tp sbb utamanya ialah menatang “505 gateway timeout” yg x jemu2 memampangkan diri tiap2 kali aku nak sign in. Jadi, sebagai consequencenye, aku jadi fed-up nak memblog apetah lagi melawat blog sniri yang sunyi sepi ini. Tp, bak kata pepatah “Once a blogger always a blogger” (xde dlm buku). Bila aku browse2 balik page aku ni and tbe2 nmpak komen yang suruh aku update, tanpa berpikir panjang aku terus mengklik button “write post” eventhough pada dasarnya aku xde idea langsung nak tulis apa. Jadi, Sebagai memenuhi permintaan dan xmau menghampakan peminat2 (macam la ada..haha) blog ini, sukalah hati aku untuk mengupdate barang serangkap (2,3,4,5……..n) untuk entry kali ini. Lagipun, wireless uni aku barus aje diupgrade dr 2.0mbps ke 4.0mbps. Justeru, perkara tersebut sesungguhnya menambahkan lg semngt aku untuk terus menulis (read:merapu) 

+++

Isu2 panas kat uni aku skrg mmg banyak. Dr kes2 vandalisme yang aku klasifikasikan sbgai dasyat yang langsung tidak menampilkan sifat2 ketrampilan seorang mahasiswa sejati yang mempunyai akal yang sihat dan waras (conteng2 bnggunan, jalan raya, menjatuhkan nama baik pihak atasan,menampal poster2 berbaur lucah) ke isu peraturan2 remeh yang tidak masuk akal seperti memakai helmet ke kuliah bg penunggang motorsikal ( note: pejalanan dr blok aku ke kuliah mengambil masa lebih kurg 2-4 min dlm kelajuan 40km/j manakala mase yang diperlukan untuk aku memakai helmet sambil memaintainakn tudung adelah lebey kurg 3 min.harap maklum) ke isu2 panas berkaitan election smpai aku kn wat assignment walhal perkara itu langusng tiada kn mengena dgn subject Precision Agriculture aku. Kn guna software GIS and GPS utk mapping kedudukan pilihanraya and calon2 bertandg and bla bla bla.. Dateline: One Week. Amik kau. Sebaik group work.If sorg2.mau sebulan x abes.

+++

Isu2 panas tentang aku pula (bajet artis aa plak kan). Well, application aku dan rakan2 untuk wat praktikal kat Sime Darby Plantation, Subang Jaya direject diatas alasan “no more vacancies”. Sepatutnya aku kn frust la kot kan? Tp aku cam suka pulak. Sbb kalo x, aku akan dicampak ke either Banting or PD. wOwO. Last2, aku apply UPM Serdang je under supervision Prof Hanafi for something related to fertigation and research. Yang membuatkan aku seronok dpt kat Serdang adalah disebabkan jarak antara Serdang dan Putrajaya yang dekat memudahkan aku (dan kapez) untuk keluar berpacaran dgn lebey mudah. Ngaaa..X x.. Nnti kalo wat kat Serdang nak sambung master sng la sket kan sbb da knal2 lecturer.hihi.

+++

Isu2 lain pulak, aku da bejaya dpatkan supervisor yang aku idam2kan for final year project aku. Supervisor terpilih itu adelah Timbalan Dekan Akademik dan my co-supervisor is my Dean himself.Ngaa..berani mati tol. Well, I just want to have an experienced working with the pro’s for truth. Evethough I know, working with them requires me to put extra effort, I dont mind it at all. Thats the path I choose. Besides, I can learn more from them. My title is something related to Cabomba furcata.Go figure.Btw, That requires me to jalan2 to pedalaman sarawak for sampling.Oh, I just cant wait!

+++

Hurm ape lagi.. oh, my bro and my sis in law together with my uncle’s famly just came back from Tokyo Japan yesterday. Damn2.My name were on the list too at first, But because of under certain circumstances, they went there first without me,ayah,ibu and adik.Damn2 again. (jealous sbenanye). Japan is my answer to my english lecturer when she ask me “Which country do u really want to go and why”.huu. melepas nak g..hampa2..mengidam nih. +++ 

argghhhhhhh!!!!!!!!

penat tulis skali ilang!!!!!!

I’ll update it later guys..fed-up!!!!!!

TQ